Picking back up

And after 4 years...

Mon, 02 Nov 2009 20:31:00 GMT

Toni posted on Facebook about how lame her LJ was so I decided to go check mine out... Yes. Lame.

I don't even know where to begin updating FOUR years! Holy hell.

Chris and I have our 4yr anniversary coming up on Saturday. What a rough road it has been... but at the end of the day sooo worth it <3

Still have Phoenix and India and they are doing GREAT. Also have a pittie puppy named Colt who will be a year old on 12/07. He is amazing! Plans for CGC with him someday. Phoenix helps with behavior mod lessons that I do with my co-worker and India is still a big baby.

Rats are all doing well. Lost many of them to a virus, Sendai, last fall. Heartbreaking. Now have a smaller group of young boys and they are all doing really well.

We have NONE of the cats we had 4yrs ago... It is so hard to believe. Miss. Kitty was murdered by a neighbors dog last October - Misty was PTS shortly after that and Boo disappeared on 9/29/09. We are trying to stay positive that she will make it home. I miss her very much. Chris and I got November in May of 2006 and we now have Trout, Sebastion, Sparrow and Marla in the mix.

I'm working full time at Webster Vet Clinic and I also am working with Sherri as an assistant trainer (www.tailsofsuccessny.com). I am in school to become a vet tech and I am also working odd pet sitting jobs (www.amandaspetsittingserviceny.com) which is a great way to get a little extra money.

That's all for now - more later I imagine.

Random things

Tue, 15 Nov 2005 03:04:18 GMT

Who the heck knows what's going on lately? I sure as hell don't. Well, I guess I should get a few things out on the table. You know the important things.

Andrew dumped me... In September I think. Well, I don't know, it was all so fucked up. He was no where near into us like he had been. We both said a lot of really mean things. Things that 2 people who love each other like we do, should never say. No matter how clever somethings were, they were hurtful. Cried too many nights in a row and watched him slip right through my fingers...

So, I moved on as much as I could and hurt a couple of people in the process, but not without giving them fair warning. And then... something flew in from left field, and his name is Chris Dunn. 2 weeks have flown by with him. Sometimes I get a call from him and am just like WTF? Why is Chris Dunn calling me? Then I remember and it feels very good.

All the animals are doing well and so are both the jobs :-P The Jetta is MIA for a couple more weeks, but thankfully Chris doesn't mind toting my ass around :-P

Registered for more classes today... Bleck... I want to be done with school and moved out and just... independent.. I can't wait!

Road trip to Michigan the 1st week of 2006!! Me, Julia and Nissa are going to harass the shit out of Elizabeth :-P

I can't think of anything else to type right now :)

Hmmm

Wed, 12 Oct 2005 11:28:51 GMT

Oh my god...

I can not remember the last time I pulled an all nighter before school!

Yes I do... it was with Julia after BsB concert... #2? I think... LoL

In anycase...

Good times had by all... I am dead though... LoL

Going to class... And napping, LoL

Stole this

Wed, 21 Sep 2005 15:39:09 GMT

Stolen from Sam :)

10 Favorites...

Favorite Color: Purple
Favorite Food: Chicken of course
Favorite Band/Singer: Backstreet Boys... Bi-atch
Favorite Song: right now? Probably 'Photograph' by Nickleback
Favorite Movie: Just 1? OK, Pretty Woman
Favorite Sport: Football
Favorite Season: Spring
Favorite Day of the Week: Hmm... I think Sunday
Favorite Ice Cream Flavor: OH! Irish Mudslide from B&J
Favorite Time of Day: Mid-Afternoon

9 Currents...

Current Mood: A bit sad
Current Taste: Bubble gum
Current Clothes: Jeans and a yellow tank
Current Desktop Picture: Its Fisher's background
Current Toenail Color: Just plain
Current Time: 11.32am
Current Surrounding: Cyber Cafe
Current Annoyance(s): You don't want to know

8 Firsts...

First Best Friend: Joey
First Kiss: LoL, Joey
First Pet: We had a few when I was born, mostly cats
First tattoo: My Rat/moon tattoo on my back
First Crush: Greg... Swoon
First Music You Remember Hearing: LoL, John Denver
First movie: Snow White I think?

7 Lasts...

Last Cigarette: Never
Last Drink: Milk
Last Car Ride: To school
Last Kiss: With the Dr.
Last Movie Seen: Don't remember what it was called, but it had cars in it, therefore it was GOOD
Last Phone Call: Umm... Probably Andrew
Last CD Played: BsB

6 Have You Evers....

Have You Ever Dated One of Your Best Friends: Yuppers
Have You Ever Broken a law: Yeah
have You Ever Been Arrested: Nope
Have You Ever Skinny Dipped: Not that I remember ;)
Have You Ever Been on TV: Umm... No
You Ever Kissed Someone You Didn't Know: Nooo

5 Things....

You're Wearing: Shirt, under shirt, bra, underwear, pants
You've Done Today: Been really sad, been hurt, smiled, talked to John, took notes
You Can't Live Without: Water, food, clothing, my house(everything in it too) and my friends
You Do When You're Bored: Internet, read, play with the dogs, clean, games

4 Places You've Been...

1. MICHIGAN!!
2. Arizona
3. Montreal
4. Mexico... I was born there too!

3 People You Can Tell Anything To...

Andrew
Pops
Nissa

2 Choices...

1. Should I
2. or shouldn't I?

1 Thing You Want to Do Before You Die...

Live. <-- Good answer

Holy crap... Its been a long time!

Wed, 06 Apr 2005 15:58:35 GMT

OK, so I know I haven't updated in a LONG time! But, gosh darnit, I have a life :-P LoL, OK, not saying that all you who update don't have lives... I just lack motivation.

But I have motivation now! That is to avoid doing my paper for Honors! LoL... 10-15 pages for Friday, thankfully its just a rough draft.

Dosha passed away in mid-March. That was really shitty. My little pudgecicle. I would type more about her, but I'm in Fisher's computer lab and I don't want to start crying... But I love her tons!

But, something great did happen. We... well I got a new dog! His name is Phoenix and he is a handsome little 10 1/2 month old pit bull. He's black and white and BEAUTIFUL! He's a really good dog. Him and India ruined a couch cushion, so my dad and I have to fix that... LoL... Good luck to us on that one.

Work is shitty... Mike got fired for a bull-shit reason. We're all fighting it though, so hopefully he'll be back to work soon.

Andrew is doing good... sexy and wonderful as ever :-P Having a great time with school */end sarcasm*

Have my classes picked out for Spring... Not the GREATEST timing for all my classes, but it'll do...

OK, I'm gonna go work now... LoL... Toodles

Stolen from Wolfchan

Sun, 20 Feb 2005 04:53:03 GMT

How to start your day with a positive attitude...
1. Create a "new folder" on your computer.
2. Name it "George W. Bush."
3. Send it to the trash.
4. Empty the trash.
5. Your computer will ask you:
"Do you really want to get rid of 'George W. Bush"?
6. Answer calmly, "Yes," and press the mouse button firmly. Smile

Guess that does kind of make me feel better...

Eh, I dunno... Whatever

Bored... wasting time...

Wed, 16 Feb 2005 18:07:48 GMT

OK, I won't write much because I really do have to finish this paper that is due tomorrow...

Valentine's Day was GREAT! I don't care how many people HATE the holiday because of whatever reason, it was VERY nice to be pampered and taken out to lunch, so I'm NOT going to complain! Andrew took me to Ruby Tuesday's for lunch! YAY! It was SO good! Had some yummy shrimp pasta alfredo and Mmm Mmm! Then I made him go with me to see Hitch. THAT was a damn cool movie! Even Andrew liked it :-P Then we went and chilled at my house for a little while. It was just a nice, mellow, relaxing day :) I love love day :)

Not really OK...

Mon, 17 Jan 2005 21:43:37 GMT

Its been three days... Three long, sad, shitty days since I had to let you go...

Peter ~ 4/3/93 - 1/14/05

So you had a blood clot in your spine that ruptured... You lost the ability to move your front legs... You had a stroke... You howled and cried... You had kidney failure... But you stayed alive long enough for me to get to you and say goodbye

I had just gotten home from my second day of classes at about 11:40 and my dad told me to call my mother because Peter was rushed to the vet, and it didn't look good...

I was at the vet with my mother by 12:25 and by 12:35 his pain was over. I never imagined watching my best friend die would be so hard. Its just the type of pain that you can't imagine, and probably don't want to imagine.

You were laying in a cage, kept warm by a heating blanket and towels. Your eyes were twitching, they said because of the kidney failure, but I swear that when I said "Hi Baby, Momma's here" you looked at me. It was more devistating for me to watch you in pain, so I said my goodbyes quickly, because my heart couldn't take seeing you in pain any longer.

The nurse came in with the needle and I held you close for your last breaths, letting you know that it was OK and that you wouldn't hurt anymore. I made sure you knew that Mom, dad, Nissa, Julia, Katie and Andrew all loved you very much. But most of all I thanked you... I thanked you for being the most amazing friend I could have ever asked for. I thanked you for having the most beautiful soul of any creature I had ever known. And just like that, you were gone.

Its so crazy how fast someone so important can leave your life. Its not like having a fight with someone and storming out.. There is always a chance to forgive one another... This is final.. I will never have you back with me. I will never get another chance to ask you for kisses or another chance to hug you and let you know that you really were who I could count on no matter what.

Eleven years, 9 months and 11 days of memories to sort out... To try and hold on to so that I never really lose you. You were always my grumpy dog... You didn't like kids, or other dogs, or cats... But you managed in a house that at several points had all three. I'd scold you for growling, but you knew that just by looking at me, I was never mad. How could I be mad at you? One look into your beautiful eyes and it was like actually seeing a love more unconditional than any other love.

We had tons of good times Boy, running in the snow, chasing each other, playing fetch, you went to work with me a lot one summer when I was working at Laidlaw. I could always count on you to stay by my side. Talk about loving me... You listened to my words beyond any other... You watched where I went, moved where I moved. You were a true dog.

Chasing the sidewalk plow... attacking a Rot! Come on now Peter! You almost got killed doing that. You were fearless.

Remember when we made the picture story with Nissa? I really think that if you could have talked you would have told us how crazy we were... But, it was a good laugh.

But my friend, I have to stop there, my heart can not take anymore. My eyes are dry from all the crying, but I promise to try and smile for you, OK? I have my own personal angel now, and I know that you will always be there, watching over me...

Just a couple of poems about losing a furkid...

THE RAINBOW BRIDGE
The real Rainbow Bridge is near Lake Powell, Arizona.
It is a sacred Indian stone bridge. The legend says:
Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge. When an animal
dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to
Rainbow Bridge.
There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run
and play together. There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our
friends are warm and comfortable. All of the animals who had been ill or
old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are
made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days
and times gone by. The animals are happy and content, except for one small
thing: they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left
behind.
They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops
and looks into the distance. Her bright eyes are intent; her eager body
quivers. Suddenly she begins to run from the group, flying over the green
grass, her legs carrying her faster and faster. You have been spotted, and
when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous
reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face,
your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the
trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent
from your heart.
Then you cross the Rainbow Bridge together....

THE SILHOUETTE - Terri Onorato
The silhouette stands boldly
at the end of the hallway
ears erect, eyes like jewels
the tail, it softly sways.
This wouldn't be the first time
I've seen her stand nearby
her image clear as crystal
from the corner of my eye.
Her visits I don't share with some
who think I've went over and beyond
the grieving time they deem I need,
they say I should move on.
I sometimes pity people who
have never felt just cause
to share the bond between two souls,
one with hands and one with paws.
The silhouette reminds me
what the others say is wrong
for as long as breath goes through me
there exists our mighty bond.
When the Keeper calls me home
and the Bridge gates open wide
our bond will deepen ten fold
as we walk through side by side.
You see, I am the lucky one
as I've been truly blessed
for someday we'll walk together
as eternal silhouettes.

A GLIMPSE OF THE RAINBOW BRIDGE - Submitted by Terri
Was it today; yesterday; a week; a month ago?
There are no days; there are no nights since my furchild died.
I reach to pet my furry friend who is no longer here.
My heart is broken; my arms are empty; how many tears I've cried.
I leave the house, into the lane we always walked together.
The rain is falling. I notice not. Just more tears on my face.
She used to lead me down the lane. Her spirit leads me still.
But we go a different way to a very strange and different place.
I stand before a rustic bridge I've never seen before.
I stop. I know I'm not to cross. But why, I want to know.
And then the rain suddenly stops. I look up into the clouds.
I look down. The bridge is gone and in its place is a rainbow.
I look across the Rainbow Bridge and see a joyful sight;
Thousands of healthy furchildren playing with my beloved pet.
I want to run and love her, but I'm rooted to the spot.
She looks and wags her tail and I hear her bark, "Not yet."
And then her bark turns to a voice and I hear her say,
"You cared for me, you played with me and loved me to the end.
I'm healthy now, don't cry for me. I'll meet you here again.
Others need your love and care. I'm sending you a friend."
I rub my eyes and the rainbow is again a rustic bridge.
I send a prayer for that quick glimpse to the loving God above.
I hear a noise and glance back down. I can't believe my eyes.
Across the bridge, my darling pet sent a furbaby for me to love.
I pick up the furry bundle, hold her close to my dampened cheek.
She nuzzles my neck, kisses my tears. It's true love at first sight.
Not to replace the one who's gone; another who needs my love and care.
My eyes are drawn upward to see a Rainbow Bridge in radiating light.
Copyright, 1995 Jean L. Mowry-Everett

REQUEST FROM RAINBOW BRIDGE - Consta Jenkins (Consta@delphi.com)
Weep not for me though I am gone
Into that gentle night
Grieve if you will, but not for long
Upon my soul's sweet flight.
I am at peace, my soul's at rest
There is no need for tears.
For with your love I was so blessed
For all those many years.
There is no pain, I suffer not,
The fear now all is gone.
Put now these things out of your thoughts,
In your memory I live on.
Remember not my fight for breath
Remember not the strife
Please do not dwell upon my death,
But celebrate my life.
Best wishes

SOMETHING FOR ALL OUR BRIDGEKIDS - Isabel M. Gordon
God speed dear friend, Valhalla waits
Oh the wonders you will see
While marking time until the day
Valkyrie comes for me.
On gentle, silken wings she flies
Gathering frightened, searching souls
And soothes them with sweet lullabyes
As Valhalla's joys unfold
Yesterday so long ago...
Seems time so quickly flies
From Welcome Friend, Come Share My life
To bittersweet goodbyes.
Come one last time, I'll walk with you
Just 'til we can see the gates
With love filled heart I'll guide you to
Where the kind Valkyrie waits.
For all the joy you've given me
For the glory days gone by
My best and final gift, my love,
I grant you wings to fly.

Just an overall update...

Tue, 04 Jan 2005 19:43:56 GMT

Hey all and a happy 2005 to ya! Hope all is going well so far...

Well, its been a really long time since I've updated, and since I have an hour before I leave for work and Andrew is not online/answering his phone, this seemed like a good idea.

Exam week went well... The whole two exams I had, LoL. I finished the semester with an A in everything except an A- in Honors Seminar... So, YAY for me :) I'm a teeny bit proud of myself :)

Pretty much been spending my time at work or hanging out with Andrew, so life has been really good :) Saw Nissa a couple of times and Katie once and Julia once, so its all good :)

On Dec. 20th one of our shelties, April, died, quite suddenly. She was such a sweet girl, a real angel and a fighter too!

Also, on December 31st I lost my little baby Sky, who was just shy of 20 months old. She fought so hard to the end, and has left a huge hole in my heart. I miss the little girl so much...

But, it has not been all bad of course! On my birthday, Dec. 30th, Andrew took me out to Don Pablo's for some yummy food and then we went out to Mary's house to get my four new babies...

The little baby in the house is Cashlin (Cash), who is a rex (curly fur)... Daisy is the light colored girl with red eyes... She is a siamese... Or as Andrew says, a Smeeze. Next to her is my hyper little Ember who is a black down under and she is sitting on top of Farah, my little mink capped girl. They are all so sweet.

Went to Andrew's house for New Year's Eve which was nice an relaxing. His poor kittie was in heat for the majority of his stay at home :-P

Andrew went back to RIT on Sunday and is on his second day of classes. We went to Lori's Natural Foods and Lee's Oriental foods today for some rat stuff and then we took a trip to WalMart... Something in WallyWorld made him upset... But we're going out bowling tonight, so it'll be good. He got new inserts in his ball, so he is hoping to do a lot better with it :)

OK, gonna go get ready now... Try and catch Andrew on the phone :) Bye bye!

Chillin at R.I.T.

Fri, 17 Dec 2004 18:12:32 GMT

Oye, so tired...

Andrew is off at his class... hopefully only until 3pm. So, I'm just here in his dorm room, chillin', pretty much wasting time. I like that the semester at Fisher ends at Christmas break so that I do not have anything to do for my classes, which would really suck, seeing as I would not have time because all I am doing during break is working it seems.

This coming week I am working Monday-Fri... Yeah, Friday, Christmas eve... Which really does suck.... I wanted to spend time with my family and Andrew's family that day, but Nooo... Poop heads.

Dosha was in the emergency vet, but has been doing so well. Unfortunately Sky has since fallen sick and has not been doing as well as her sister. I have not idea what is causing her to be ill. She is on meds, and I am just hoping for the best.

On a lighter, rat-related news, I am going tomorrow night to see Mary and all her baby ratties. I am really excited to see the little ones and I will be sure to take tons of pictures :)

OK, I don't feel like typing anymore... C'ya later!

Been a while

Fri, 03 Dec 2004 17:38:05 GMT

I figure that it has been a while since I have updated... not that anyone really reads this, but I have another hour before class, Andrew isn't online and I have no work to do... So this is the next best thing.

Work has been killer lately... Geez... On Wednesday, it was the last day of our 30% for employee thing, so EVERY employee decided to come in that night. Doreen, Laurie, Jen, Karin/Tom, Katie and Lisa all had 5 to 8 shopping carts FULL of stuff... It was just such a pain... And of course there was only me on register because Karin got to clock out early to shop... And it was 4:30 and Lisa wasn't on for another hour. So Dave comes up and I have Karin and her 8 carts in my line and Dave has Jen and her 6 carts in his line... so what about the customers? I was about 1/4 into Karin's when they started coming into line... So Dave goes and opens a third register... with just he and I working... So we were hopping between Karin and Jen to take care of customers... it was CRAZY! That happened 3 times that night.... Doreen and Natilie were the last to finish at about 9:15 so Lisa and I got a VERY late start on recovery. At 10 Lisa went home because she had to be to her other job at 6 the next morning. I was helping Steve finish up his recovery when Dave asked if I could stay another hour to help unload our truck that came HOURS late... So, long story short, I was at work until 1:30am... BLAH! I mean, it was OK because it was mostly just Steve and myself, so I at least had someone to talk to... But, boy oh boy... I guess its good though, with the holidays coming up and Christmas shopping and the like...

Hopefully work won't be so busy tonight. At least I get to work with Little Karen tonight... Which is always good times :) Hopefully I won't be there too late because I have to be there in the AM at 9 until 4:30... Which isn't too bad... Except its shots day and Santa will be there... So, its going to be CRAZY!

School is going good... One more week left... Piece of CAKE! WooHoo! Then finals... But I only have two of them... One on Tuesday and the other on Wednesday... So I am done from 12/15 to 1/13... YAY! Haha... I need a month off! I'll be good... Hope to get some sleep :-P I actually finished the game for my Psych group and it is good! It'll be a good grade, I'm sure. I am so hungry right now... Eek! But, I'll be outta here by 2:20 and I'll stop at the mall... I want to go to Barns and Noble for some shopping, then I'll get a bite to eat.

Andrew is doing good. His grandpa is in the hospital... So good thoughts are requested :) I went to see him Tuesday night and last night. Last nigth he got a BAD headache... we were going to go bowling, but I left early so he could get some sleep... Poor guy. I'll wind up seeing him this weekend, so no worries :-P

The white rats have now found their forever home... I'll be taking them during my finals week... Also that Saturday, the 18th, I am going to Mary's house to look at the babies she has. I'm getting four of them after Christmas! WOOHOO! I can not wait. I love her babies so much! I mean, look at D and Sky!

Okey doke... I'm done with this for now. Toodles!!

Another busy week :)

Mon, 22 Nov 2004 02:27:53 GMT

Oh boy! *YAWN* *STRETCH*

I kind of like this whole busy life business... I have a lot to update I think, my I messed up my wrist sometime on Saturday and its a bitch to type...

Last week, school wise, was OK... Had an English/psych paper to do... But aside from that, nothing too major. At work on Wednesday I bought a betta fish!!! He is SOOO pretty and is named after my favorite associate ever! Karen! WOO HOO!

I went out to see Andrew... Hmm... On some day, LoL... He was hanging out with though... And we went out Bowling... I went to RIT on Friday after my last class to be with my Baby... We cruised around Ridge Rd and he met Karen! YAY! Then we helped Jeremy pack up and get the hell out for the next week :-P So now Andrew has the room all to himself! We went to the corner store at RIT to get some munchies and then we saw a fox! I had work on Saturday and then went to RIT for the night and chilled with Andrew and did our $5 Sunday bowling today and then I had a work meeting...

Now I'm doing laundry and talking to Andrew (Whom I love SOOOOO much!!!)

WOOHOOO!!!!!

Thu, 18 Nov 2004 19:15:49 GMT

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Hey there!

Mon, 15 Nov 2004 17:52:14 GMT

Hey there world! How's it going? Good I hope.

Just figured I better update this thing so you know what is going on... Although it isn't much... *Hank Hill voice* I tell ya' what. But thats OK!!

Started playing this game last week online... Its this game where you go around and run in circles, burn shrimp and cut down trees... Well, that is the extent of my knowledge on it. Andrew is teaching me how to do it.

Last week... well, at least the end of it, was so BUSY! I worked Wednesday night until 10, then Thursday night I went out to the mall with Andrew and then we went bowling, which of course means we were out late... But its always fun. I bought that awesome pig throwing game too! YAY!

Friday I had class until 11 then I went over to RIT to get Andrew so he could get his haircut, then we pretty much just hung out at RIT... No, wait, we went toTops, Wendy's and then back to RIT! Friday night I went to work from 4 until 9:30 but I was actually there until 10:30 and I had to go Walmart afterwards to get some new pants.

Saturday I went and did a thing at #36 school with SWAV. Up at 6:30 to go to Fisher then back into the city. We left at 11:45 to go BACK to Fisher again, then I had to go to work from 1 until 9:30... Actually got out close to ontime... went to Taco Bell to get some food for me and Andrew and went to RIT for the night! WOOHOO!

Sunday morning Andrew and I got up early to go and bowl at Olymipic in the AM until noon... It was fun! Andrew did quite well and I had nachos, so, YAY! Then I had work from 1 until 6:30 and a meeting that went until 8... the meeting was fun though. Sat in the back and messed around with Natilie... She's my buddy from grooming! YAY

I guess my mom got a call from my Aunt Debbie last night... (For those who know, the Debbie in Virginia, with Andie, Max and Joel) and I guess they had a massive housefire and lost everything, I mean even their pets. So, that really sucks... And I guess Andie is 13 now! And Julia, I know you remember the cute little 7 year old he was! That means that Max is 11 and Joel is 12! Oh my GOSH! I miss my little guys. Its been way to damn long since I've seen them... Maybe I'll see them this summer. Oh well... *sigh*

Okey doke... Gonna chill until class at 1:25 then I'm hanging out with Samantha until class at 6:10. Toodles!!

Twisted

Wed, 10 Nov 2004 01:37:30 GMT

He stands alone outside the blooming yards
All is calm there on the street
The shadows pass him hung right over
The pain on his face he knew he'd keep...
His hair is long, and it's twisted, it's twisted
Around the smile spread cheek to cheek
Another child, another soul, grabs a hold
To the metal that will end his misery...

[CHORUS:]
One by one
We stand beneath the sun
With arms high open wide
Two by two
He's getting you
To watch him as he leaves this life he knew

How much anger is set aside
As each one of us cries
Red light they come and they take him away
In the thoughts, he'll be better, some day...
Tied tight, can't see out your eyes
That he's sure to shine, sure to shine
In this deep dark, played out, reality show
So, who's the man, with the plan,
eating up all that he can?
Don't you see, don't you see...

[CHORUS]

Do you ever think that things are meant to be?
I know we all have our reasons why
And now the power of one human being
Has gone and changed so many lives...

[CHORUS]

One by one
We start to come undone...
Two by two
He's getting through to you...
One by one we stand, we stand, we stand, over,
over, you...

I dunno why I put those in here... Thats just what I'm listening to right now...

BAH!! I need a HUG! I need some affection... Bad... Not that you all care, but I thought I would share my needs... You know?

Well, I dropped my math class today... And I am very glad I did... Taking a math class at 6pm? Hell no... I mean, seriously, HELL NO!

I have work tomorrow night... And Friday night... And Saturday night.... And Sunday night... WOOHOO! Haha, its OK though, because I do like my job. I would much rather be wasting my time at home or be hanging out with Andrew... because at least sometimes he gives me hugs, ya know?

Is it love tonight
When everyone's dreaming
Of a better life
In this world
Divided by fear
We've gotta believe that
There's a reason we're here
Yeah, there's a reason we're here

Cause these are the days worth living
These are the years we're given
And these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives

See the truth all around
Our faith can be broken
And our hands can be bound
But open our hearts and fill up the emptiness
With nothing to stop us
Is it not worth the risk?
Yeah, is it not worth the risk?

Cause these are the days worth living
These are the years we're given
And these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives
Even if hope was shattered
I know it wouldn't matter
Cause these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives

We can't go on
Thinking it's wrong
To speak our minds
I've gotta let out what's inside

Is it love tonight
When everyone's dreaming
Can we get it right?
Yeah, well can we get it right?

Cause these are the days worth living
These are the years we're given
And these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives
Even if hope was shattered
I know it wouldn't matter
Because these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives
Is it love tonight
When everyone's dreaming
Of a better life
In this world
Divided by fear
We've gotta believe that
There's a reason we're here
Yeah, there's a reason we're here

Cause these are the days worth living
These are the years we're given
And these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives

See the truth all around
Our faith can be broken
And our hands can be bound
But open our hearts and fill up the emptiness
With nothing to stop us
Is it not worth the risk?
Yeah, is it not worth the risk?

Cause these are the days worth living
These are the years we're given
And these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives
Even if hope was shattered
I know it wouldn't matter
Cause these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives

We can't go on
Thinking it's wrong
To speak our minds
I've gotta let out what's inside

Is it love tonight
When everyone's dreaming
Can we get it right?
Yeah, well can we get it right?

Cause these are the days worth living
These are the years we're given
And these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives
Even if hope was shattered
I know it wouldn't matter
Because these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives

Thats a really great song... I'm done now... C'ya

Mon, 08 Nov 2004 16:22:48 GMT

Okey doke.... I'm redoing my classes for next semester....

Monday/Wednesday/Friday:

9:05-10:00am - Honors - Research Based Writing - O'Brien

10:10-11:05am - Biology (Human Genetics YAY!) - Wentland

Tuesday/Thursday:

8:00-9:20am - Basic Logic - White

9:30-10:50 - Intro to Sociology

11:00-12:20pm - Intro to Public Relations - Roberts

Not TOO different... But different enough :-P

We'll see how long this one sticks.

I have 2 things to do for Honors Sem. tonight at 6 and also 30pgs for Ethics to read by 1:25. I better get cracking!!!

See ya later!!!

P.S. Being a girl sometimes sucks... OUCH!

Thu, 04 Nov 2004 18:59:14 GMT

Here it is folks! Hopefully what my Spring '05 Semester!

Monday/Wednesday/Friday:

9:05-10:00am - Honors - Research Based Writing - O'Brien

10:10-11:05am - Biology (Human Genetics YAY!) - Wentland

11:15-12:10pm - Writing and Research for Political Science - Harman

Tuesday/Thursday:

8:00-9:20am - Basic Logic - White

11:00-12:20pm - Intro to Public Relations - Roberts

So, YAY! Out of here every day by 12:30.. Thats AWESOME! I can actually go into work and maybe leave and not have to close :-P Or I can just do nothing! Muahahahah! Needless to say, I'm pretty excited. I mean, I usually get here around 9am anyway... 8 won't be bad at all... I'll be up early shoveling anyway :-P

Okey doke... I have to head over to the library... Mass Comm HW to get done, EEK! Toodles!!

BAH

Wed, 03 Nov 2004 17:31:15 GMT

"Its the end of the world as we know it..." - Thats all I'm going to say about that dumbass winning the election... So nah

Anywho... Had my Mass Comm. presentation yesterday and that went well... Skipped math class to pick up Andrew so he could go vote... hung out at my house, voted, got chinese and took Andrew home... Thats a damn good summary if you ask me. I have Ethics in a little while and then work...

I'm just mad now... Oh well, life goes on...

*YAWN!*

Wed, 27 Oct 2004 02:39:12 GMT

Holy cow! Andrew's Birthday is... 4 days away!!! I still don't have his stuff wrapped or a card! But it will get done! And this is an early wish for Andrew:

YAY!!!!! Birthdays are cool!!!!

School has been going well... Got an 89 on my last Mass Comm test and a 94 midterm grade... Math is the only class I'm worried about because I just hate it

Went to the S.W.A.V. meeting last night and it was GREAT! The 6 of them (John, Katie, Jackie, Bunny, Caitlin and James) have done a GREAT job getting it started and I am so excited... They want to do a lot with the city schools so I say CHEERS! Fantastic idea!!!!

Have a powerpoint for Mass Comm and Psych to get done... Math test to study for, car to clean, Ethics to read... But the Ethics won't be bad because its all about Animal Rights... so, HELL YEAH!!!

And Sunday is Halloween! Going to work and am dressing up with my buddy Karen! WOOHOO! Then picking up Andrew or going to hang out with Andrew... Not sure what Sunday is going to be like.... Saturday night he's staying at his house for his SECOND birthday meal! He's so lucky

So....

So frustrating...

Mon, 25 Oct 2004 01:53:39 GMT

I DESTEST when I get in these moods.... I was leaving Clover Lanes after dropping off Andrew and I just got SO sad... Well, I guess I was sad for a while today... but it just makes me angry because I have NO REASON to be sad... I just keep feeling like I want to cry and then I can't think of a reason WHY I want to cry and that makes me upset... Its like a cycle...

I have NO right to be having a pity party for myself, you know? I have SO MUCH in my life to be thankful for... I'm healthy, in college, great friends and don't even get me started on Andrew *MUAH!* Its so crazy... He's my BEST friend and treats me as such... You know, keeps me grounded, but he is also an AMAZING boyfriend and every now and then does just the smallest things to make me feel like I am on top of the world.

I'm going with the fact that I've been off the pill for a week because the free samples went out... I'm going in tomorrow to get more so HOPEFULLY its just that... It just makes me mad when I KNOW things could be SO much worse and I'm still just bleck feeling.

But, in anycase, I did have a great weekend... With Andrew of course :) We did Laundry, hung out at RIT for the night and saw Kevin for his Birthday today :) Loads of fun... I love mah boys :)

I have an Ethics test tomorrow afternoon that I'm going to study for... FUN! :-P Night night!!!

Hmm... Not really a whole lot to say...

Fri, 22 Oct 2004 13:37:42 GMT

Except....

ANDREW'S BIRTHDAY IS A WEEK FROM SATURDAY!!! WOO HOO!!!

How EXCITING! Woohoo!!!! Hehe... thats about all... I have english in about 20 minutes... Gonna go hang out with Elly! Bye bye!!!!

WOOHOO

Mon, 18 Oct 2004 16:16:52 GMT

Thats right people! Smoking SUCKS!!!

*stops off soap box*

So, how are you all doing today? I'm fine, thanks for asking! Figured I might as well stop by and say HI since I don't have class until 1:25... Better to be bored and doing something than to be bored and, well, not.

I am so tired today and I have no idea why... Ick! Last week was just, eh, you know... I did not go to Ethics on Wednesday because I was sick... But I had to go into work at 4 anyway... But work is fun... The newest girl there, Karen, is really nice! She's loads of fun to hang out with.

Thursday night I devoted to cleaning the Rats and bathing them... LOADS of fun I tells ya'. The Friday I had no classes to I went early to hang out with Andrew at RIT... Went with him to his computer lab, which was pretty cool! Then we went back to his room and called Kevin for lunch plans and went out to Friendly's... That was fun too, of course! Then we got back to RIT and Andrew and I took a nap for a couple hours before I had to go to work... After work Karin and Tom came back to pick up Karin's car and they said that a cat had been hit by a car near the enterence to the plaza so Becky and I went to go check it out and there was nothing we could do for it... So we took a cardboard box and moved it to the side of the road and called Animal Control to come and take care of it. After that it was about 10:15pm and I had to run over to Andrew's house to take his Mumsy shopping... you know, girl time... It was fun... We both get too hyper at night... Then at her house I stayed and chatted until about 2am. Then on the way home I was almost hit by a HUGE SUV! I was so pissed!!!

I had work on Saturdat from 12 until 5 then I went to pick up Andrew and go to Kev's for pizza and Noah :-P That was fun! Watched a really funny Indian movie... Then when Noah left the three of us went to Clover to bowl because Andrew is awesome and we can bowl there for $1 a game!!!

When Andrew and I got back to my house around 12:30am we started building the new $165 cage I got for the Ratties... its frickin GREAT! Its about an inch taller than Andrew... (He's about 5'10") Its CRAZY! The girls were all scared at first but they like it more now... We were up until... Geez... 3:30-4am doing that... Got up the next day around... 11:30(?) Had to finish up some laundry and then head to Andrew's house for dinner with his family. I swear, sometimes it feels like we're already married... not that I mind AT ALL! He's so cute :):) I love him *MUAH!*

*YAWN* *STRETCH* Okey doke... Gonna go do SOMETHING now... LoL... I don't know what though... Have a fan-frickin-tastic day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Bye bye!!!!

Oh no...

Mon, 11 Oct 2004 02:29:32 GMT

Hey all! Damn... This thing is just WONDERFUL at wanting to be updated when I have work to do! This is how my conversation with my LJ went tonight...

LJ: Hi Amanda...

Me: Hey... Please don't ask...

LJ: I need you to update me... Now

Me: But... I have a paper to write tonight...

LJ: Amanda, come on... What's more important... Me? Or ... school *puke*

Me: Well.. I guess you are... At least you talk to me...

LJ: Well, actually me talking to you is just because you're losing your mind waiting for something to distact you...

Me: Shut the hell up...

|M|y| |L|i|v|e|J|o|u|r|n|a|l

MY Anti-Homework

Hehehehe! Damn... I am pathetic... Oh well :)

Last week was kind of trying... Lots to get done... Andrew was feeling down so I was trying to make him feel better... Sometimes I think it may have helped :)

He and I went out Wednesday to get his new bowling ball drilled... Hung out that night for a while as well... The I worked Fri. and Saturday... SO busy at work! Oh my gosh... I couldn't believe it... Thankfully I love the people there... Minus Dave :-P

My check book needs to be balance... Waah!

Andrew is out bowling with his school now :) He was over last night and today and it was GREAT! It frickin sucks how much I miss him during the week. I didn't think that by now it would still be so bad... But I guess in H.S. I got used to seeing him and hugging him every morning... The highlight of my morning, what made me really want to get up and go... Ya know? I mean, I still get up and go, but its like I don't have something magical to look forward to... And it seems silly that a hug could be magical, but... when it with the one person in the world who means the most to you and the person who is everything you've ever needed in someone, as a friend, as a boyfriend, as just a human being... It really is magical. Its crazy how much I love him :) And he's going to be 18 in a few weeks! YAY!!

*N.O.T.E T.O A.N.D.R.E.W*

I love you Baby Doll.. More than anything else... Everything that we've been through and done in the past 16 months is just a small part of everything we still have left to do. Thank you for everything my Angel...

Anywho... I should probably get going and actually start writing my English paper... Thankfully it's just a rough draft... Have a good night all! :)

"You're My Better Half"

Car door slams, it's been a long day at work
I'm out on the freeway and I'm wondering if it's all worth
The price that I pay, sometimes it doesn't seem fair
I pull into the drive and you're standing there
And you look at me
And give me that come-here-baby smile
It's all gonna be alright
You take my hand
You pull me close and you hold me tight

[Chorus:]
It's the sweet love that you give to me
That makes me believe we can make it through anything
'Cause when it all comes down
And I'm feeling like I'll never last
I just lean on you 'cause baby
You're my better half

They say behind every man is a good woman
But I think that's a lie
'Cause when it comes to you I'd rather have you by my side
You don't know how much I count you to help me
When I've given everything I got and I just feel like giving in
And you look at me
And give me that come-here-baby smile
It's all gonna be alright
You take my hand
Yeah you pull me close and you me tight

[REPEAT CHORUS]

Well, you take my hand
Yeah you pull me close and I understand

It's the sweet love that you give to me
That makes me believe that we can make it through anything

Oh baby, it's the sweet love that you give to me
That makes me believe we can make it through anything
'Cause when it all comes down
And I'm feeling like I'll never last
I just lean on you 'cause baby
You're my better half

Oh, oh baby you're my better half
Ooh, hey baby you're my better half

Mon, 04 Oct 2004 13:32:03 GMT

Hey all! How's it hanging? Low and to the left! HAHAH! *sigh* Whew... I slay me...

The Apple Fest was a bust! It poured the whole 20 minutes Andrew and I were there! It was cooold and rainy... But, I got good food! Which, is the whole point of festivals!

Friday night after work Andrew and I hunted all over Rochester for a Charter One that was open and functioning :-P Then we went to the bowling ally and officially got my ass kicked... But, those who can't, coach! So now I coach Andrew at Bowling! Muahahaha. I'm a good coach too! Just ask him :)

Hoping to get the car fixed today or in the next couple of days. Cross your fingers!!!

YEAH! Voting!!

Fri, 01 Oct 2004 01:40:23 GMT

I really did not expect to be so excited about the debates that are going on... But, I can't really help it. B.L. is going to be proud of me. YAY!

Going to get Andrew tomorrow night!! YAY! The Hilton Apple Fest is also on Saturday... My car is making sick sounds... So I'm taking the Cadillac to work tomorrow...

I had no classes yesterday because of the death of my College's President from bone cancer. I had no Psych class today either... Simple classes tomorrow... Work too... Which is good... The remodeling is CRAZY! We have our new registers and they have conver belts!! HELLER BACK!!